i hope they'll do fine soon

i used to have a long list of photoblogs in one folder in my Bookmark, in fact i still do, but i rarely use the list anymore. i now use FeedReader to easily monitor each one of them, and see the latest entry the moment they are posted. there is one catch to using this tool though, each site has to provide a feed URL that i could subscribe into, fortunately most of them does. there are around five that don't and these i have to browse manually with firefox. so yeah, one of these site is The Snowsuit Effort which usually features homeless in the detroit area. i am not really in favor of this ideai don't really like seeing their faces, as i feel guilty for not providing spare change most of the time, but i can't help visiting the site from time to time, most recently of which was this morning. naturally, i would see the most recent entry, and then i would navigate backward to see all previous post that i missed. as i was browsing backward, i came into this one and immediately noticed his lonely teary eyes. his one-liner is "i am late for work..."(a short statement presumably by the subject is always included below the image), but seeing how miserable he looks breaks my heart. of course i know he doesn't have a job =(
then i decided to move on, hitting previous to proceed with the next older entry and saw this one, and the moment i connect with his eyes, i too almost broke into tears. i can't believe how the photographer had managed to go on with the shoot when his subject is already in tears (for i think self-pity). i'm sure his intentions are really good, and this whole effort would eventually benefit these homeless, and that's probably the reason why he went on with the shot. i know i haven't ventured on the difficult side of photography yet, where emotions are already involved. so until that time comes, i can't tell how i would feel if i'm the one behind those lens.

i stopped browsing on that last image, contemplating on the images i saw. I always wanted to photograph these people, but then now i realized i shouldn't, unless my effort would bring something back to help them.